ramblings part v

i live in a week which consists of one long day..
i live in a month which consists of one long week..
monday morphs painfully into tuesday..
then into wednesday and so forth.
everyday feels the same.
everyday feels no different.
and everyday the pain just deepens.
and though the sky gets blacker
and it gets more tiresome to breathe
and fresh air is a distant memory.
i feel none of it.
nothing.
zilch.

it's hard to express how you feel
especially when you keep trying to surpress your feelings

it's hard to cry
especially when you're too tired to tear

it's hard to sleep
especially when your mind won't stop running in circles

it's hard to make your words rhyme
especially when you dont know what to say.

we men may say more, swear more, but indeed
Our shows are more than will; for still we prove
Much in our vows, but little in our love.

the time has come again.

hmmm. this place looks vaguley familiar.
haha.. sorry that i have neglected this site for eternity.
anyway.
we're almost at the last week of school hols.
and then the season of mad rushing and the sweeping of pens fast running dry will be heard everywhere.
yes. its the exams again. and not just any ol' exams. its the o levels.
and lately ive been getting very anxious of where i should go after we finish the o levels.
and no i haven't come to an answer or a conclusion to my wavepool of thoughts.

well i just got back from bintan. for three days only no doubt but it was a pretty nice get away.
im aching like a prune. im sure prunes ache. they look so ache-y.
wish i got some pictures. but oh well. it was fun.

so to all you sec fourians out there. all the best for yuor studying which im sure all of you must have somewhat started.. right? yes so all the best. and that when you decide where to go after we're done with secondary school, it will be based on your own thoughts and wishes and what you think God would have you do. and not based on wanting to be cool or on the fear of what others would think and perceive you as if you went somewhere.
and dont cry too much when i kick your ass. haha!

happy studying.

i haven't written here for a while..

well.its been a pretty happening first few weeks of school.

already ive had some incredible days

and some really crappy ones.

all in all a highly fufilling and tiring first 2 and a half weeks of sec 4.

i feel confused and lost.

i feel like i've been left behind in 2005 and the world just moved on without me

hmms.

oh well!

and im sick too.bleh.

getting caught in the rain too much.

i dont know what else to write here.

i feel weird.

so long!