apathy.

so has life really suddenly lost all meaning ?
or have we as mere human beings lost our own meaning to live.
i look around, and all i see is people falling deeper into apathy.

ap·a·thy [ap-uh-thee] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun, plural -thies.
1. absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.
2. lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting.
3. Also, ap·a·thei·a, ap·a·thi·a [ap-uh-thee-uh] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation. Stoicism. freedom from emotion of any kind.

lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting.. sound familiar ?
i like no.3 "freedom from emotion of any kind" as if emotion were a sort of plague or disease.
how do we, we being the large majority of my 16/17 year old friends, adolescents (for boys as mr lenn would correct me), suddenly lose all will to live on ?

the same people who used to be bubbling with life, eager to explore life's mysteries, greedy for reckless adventure, suddenly deteriorate into this current state.

when suddenly life loses it's mystery and wonder. the games we used to find so enthralling suddenly bore us, seem childish and a waste of time. a waste of our valuable time! a time that could be used to .. hmm. i'll have to get back to you on that one...

when the harmless fun and thrill we used to derive from flirting and the mysteries of relationships (that nobody has yet unraveled) turns to pain hurt and bad memories..

when school or work just seems to consume you, head, feet, heart and soul. when one day seems to weld itself to the following day and it gets hard to figure out whether it's night or morning, monday or thursday.

when everyday day is just another day to count down to the weekend, or the holidays. and when the weekend and holidays finally DO come, they never last long enough. and suddenly it's over, and we're left trying to remember how we'd spent the long awaited holidays, just to wake up to find ourselves sitting in the middle of an econs test. yum.

there's no way that we're going to survive like this much longer.. no.

i reckon we'll all find our own little ways to combat life's meaninglessness.

some will probably take up some extreme sport, others will migrate, only to find that it's the same anywhere in the world, others will end up behind bars in their pursuit of meaning, others will get married (heh)...
and hopefully some will find God i suppose.

moving on ..

"And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through"

we've just gotta move along i guess, or we stagnate and breed mosquitoes and shit.
even when all your hope is gone ? you've still gotta move along.
there aint no such thing as sitting around and watching the world go by.

all of life is a constant fluid movement
always changing, direction or speed.
sometimes it slows down, coming nearly to a stop,
only to whip us away again into the never ending abyss of colours.
no, there's no stopping this movement.
like the smell of flowers, diffuse and pervades our senses,
bringing back memories of old,
it keeps moving, keeps drifting ..
until there is nothing left at all,
the scent fades with the sunset,
though the memories linger on in haunting whisper.