honourable mention. shoutouts.

shoutout!

hey everyone! well this is just for like..all those people who've made an impact in my life some way or another. THANKS! and i'm REALLY sorry if i forget anyone!

guys

.SLOKEY.

hey you! oh man i owe you so much. been a great friend to me in the past few weeks and months despite your own problems. always remember to make God the centre! everything else will fall in place around Him. yup. take care!

.JOHANNES.

ah yOU! you're a moron! haha. but i'm glad you've realised your moronicity. haha you've always been a great friend to me. for the past how many years. yup so just hope you'll continue to be yourself! haha. and stop being such an idiot. haha how many drinks do you owe me now huh!?

.BEN TAN.

heyy ben! you might not realise it..but you've really been like a father figure to me the past few months and to many others i believe. thanks for all the wisdom and guidance! and not to mention the lunches and dinners and suppers too. haha. but really i owe you tonns. slow to judge quick to help. yup. thanks ben!

.CHANG.

hey you master moron! i'm not sure if you'll see this but too bad. thanks for all the..ermm.. advice? haha. and adding a new chapter of retardness to my life. for being all stable when i'm losing my mind. haha. keep being a moron and stop being such a moron! hahaha.

girls

.CHERYL.

hipooooooo! haha..what to say.haha.you've really been my bestfriend this..last..year? maybe longer.and i owe you like.. too much.i don't know where i'd be if not for your helping me through all that sinking sand! so yup thanks for pushing through the problems when all i wanted to do was give up (: yupp i don't need to say anything more. except..thanks! and. POKE

.DEBBIE.

heyy webbie! haha you've been more than a great cousin to me! you've been a really great friend too. and i must say that in the midst of your erm. stupidity and randomness. you CAN be quite wise. or pretend to be really well. haha kidding. thanks for everything!

.TERI.

hey therms! thanks for sharing and everything.didn't really get the chance to thank you.really meant quite alot to me..yup thanks for being there for me to talk to any time when i needed a 'ermit' counselling session. hahaha. moderate your fried pig ok? haha.

.JUDITH.

heyy evilwitchfromthewest! haha. didn't really talk to you much until recently. and HEY. you're quite nice! haha. *suprisingly* haha.kiddin! haha thanks again for like.. being quite a nice person to talk to.haha.and being there for me too.yup.thanks!

.SARAH.

hahaha hey sarah! welcome back.you get this little footnote since you asked SOO nicely. and since it's already taller than you are i can't say that anymore.haha.ah sarah here..hmm. if she's anything like she was 5 years ago she's really fun to talk to.a real ego destroyer and balloon popper. but it's all ok! because she'll blow another balloon for you and embarrass herself so badly your ego won't get affected too badly! haha.yeah but she's really great to talk to if you need one of those talks where you need to hear all the stuff you already know but don't believe :) haha i mean this in the nicest way possible. thanks sarah! haha.

tired.

i'm tired of this.

won't they let me alone?

i'm not sure

if i'm going to be able

to leap over the next hurdle coming my way.

i might just stumble.

fall.

and not get up.

i'm

tired..

tired.

psalms! cool!

You are Psalms.
i am psalms!
haha this is quite accurate i guess?
don't worry about me.
i'll be fine.

pain.

pain.

pain.

pain.

rips through me.

and not just me.

it never just affects me

one dies all die

is it enough?

obviously not.

it's never enough.

does it ever end?

WILL it ever end?

CAN it?

so what.

even if it does.

there's always something to takes it's place.

probably worse than before.

it comes in streams.

it's playing with me.

toying with me.

like a big cat poking a mouse with it's enourmous claw.

helpless.

at the mercy of it.

the only thing that we can be certain of.

is death.

but even then..

how when and why we'll never know.

minus suicide that is...

but are we?

are we helpless?

sadly yes we are.

problems.

they're FOREVER GOING TO BE IN YOUR FACE.

FACE IT.

and there's NOTHING you can EVER do about it.

all you can do is.

live with it.

and pray.

but then.

look in perspective.

sometimes i get so wrapped up in my own problems.

i block out the rest of the world.

i'm caved in.

in a world of my own hurts and pain.

and problems.

but you're never alone in all this.

even when you've blocked out the world.

and the world's turned it's back on you.

there's always. God.

waiting until you notice that he's there.

standing with open arms.

one day.

all your problems will melt away.

but until then.

just let Him handle them for you.

COS YOU'RE NEVER GONNA BE ABLE TO MAKE IT IN THIS WORLD ON YOUR OWN.

it'll eat you.

it's eating me..

slowly.

gradually.

tearing me apart.

one day i might just break.

lose it.

the composure you think you see on my face?

thats called.

a mask.

and i'm trying to tear that mask off.

what if..

what if..

today you lost your memory?

and you woke up, and didn't remember a thing

about anybody

anything you used to do

or did.

what if..

the sun stopped shining today?

the world would freeze over

and you'd wish you never complained about the heat..

what if..

the country carrying your family was destroyed today?

just like.that.

you'd wish you never fought with your simblings..

gave your parents lip.

complained about the food and chores.

you'd wish you stayed home more.

said more.

what if..

your friends were wiped out.

gone.

pooof.

then what.

you'd wish you never made those enemies..

fought with your friends.

ignored them in their times of need..

you'd wish you talked to them more..

told them how much you appreciated them..

you'd wish.

you had just one more second.

1.

to tell them how much they meant to you.

thank them for all they've done for you..

lucky for you.

the world's probably not gonna end tomorrow..(you never know)

nor is your family gonna get struck by lightning..

or your friends, rolled down by a bus.

but it could happen.

anytime.

so why wait for it to happen.

live like today's your last.

but don't spend your money like it's your last.

and stop thinking about the what if's..

and have.

faith.