.the meaning to life.

just what exactly is the meaning to life?
everybody's asked themselves that.
few have found the answer.
the question is.
why have we been put on this polluted little grain of sand?
whats our final and only objective?
when you put it in perspective.
it's not that hard to see actually
cos the answer to the question is.
there is no meaning to life.
except one.
and the meaning to life is just
God.
singular
perfect..
.. God.
and our one goal in life.
our real reason why we've been dropped on this world
is to simply find God.
and all these troubles you may be facing at this present moment
are merely hurdles placed in front of you
to help you get stronger.
more alert
fitter.
to help you reach your final goal.
so don't give up. don't put away your shoes
when you face these troubles that seem so overwhelming
so uncomprehendable.
cos it might be uncomprehendable considering our situation
but it's comforting to know that
up there
not too far away
looking down on you
(not as in "looking down on" anyway)
watching over you
standing by your side
carrying you even
is our God.
and it's nice to know that he's really in control of everything
i mean that.
if He wanted to
he could just erase all your problems
then WHY doesn't He?
you ask
cos if they don't kill you
they'll build you up stronger
and it's good to know that
He won't let a trial kill you
unless of course it's your time to go.
so thats why we can have our full faith and trust in him
cos. he rocks.
he rules over everything.
and he cares to death for you.
literally.

thoughts of october 3rd

life's too short.
it's too short for grudges,
or lies,
or enemies
or even secrets.
cos it could anytime.
even now.
for all you know
this could be my last entry.
this could be my last time
i touch a keyboard
or play a guitar.
cos life can end at anytime
whenever God wants us home
and will you be able to leave this earth
knowing that you told everyone everything
that you wanted to say to them
forgave the last guy that gave you a black eye
or a black face.
forgave the guy that last insulted you
told your friends how much they meant to you
made peace with your worse enemies
thanked your parents for all they've done for you
said sorry to the last person you did wrong to.
will you be able to say to yourself after you're dead and gone.
that your work on earth is accomplished?
and that you won't be kicking in your grave?
kicking yourself?

fear of man

today's shineforth sermon talked about fear of man and how it drives us to do stuff out of fear.
and i'm beginning to understand more and more why people around me act the way that
they do. then i said to myself. wow thats really dumb. then i lOOked at myself and then i said. heh i do that too! and it IS real dumb. oh it is real dumb by the way. and then there was that old wesley man saying. he said: give me one hundred men, who fear nothing but sin, and desire nothing but God, such will shake the gates of hell and set up the kingdom of heaven on earth. ANYWAY. my point was that why should we even be afraid or fear sin as he put it. because we know that satan "he can't touch us- tan gee paw". he can't do nuts to us cos we got God. and he's in the house. yups. that was my randomly random thoughts for today. tonight i might get further random thoughts. haha.

ps to ben: oh by the way.. maybe i do. but i'm trying not to. [refrence to you question]

thoughts of 1st october

after talking to ben last week about some stuff it gave me alot to think about. it made me think about the controversy of my life. and how i was just like that song from planet shakers. where it talks about being all good and stuff on sundays etc and being a different person during the week. been really hoping that i'll bring my two "lives" together. where sunday will be like a "recharging base" or such. and school and the rest of the world is where we're supposed to minister to ppl and change lives and all that. but it seems so much like we die off on monday to friday.. it's really quite bad. breaking down the masks. breaking away from status quo. being labelled a Jesus freak. its something we all should be truly. martrys. we should be standing up for all we believe. like "the pledge of the unashamed" my pledge for life. something i'm hoping to eventually become. hopefully sooner. and i see my friends. fellow christians falling into temptation and being hurt so badly by things of this world. people of this world. because WE aren't people of this world! this world is and gone. ruled by satan. condemned to . but we've been saved. we're not of this world. this is merely but a part of our lives. that we must fulfill in order to achieve greater heights. anyywayy. this week taught me alot too. cos i've been like phoneless this whole week to concentrate on my studies.. usually i talk to my friends and share my thoughts and problems. but because i haven't been able to it kinda forced me to talk to God alot more. and it was good. although i didn't plan it that way. God turned something bad for me to something good. and it goes to show how much i've been depending on the comfort and help from my friends. you guys are really great. you know who you are.. i wouldn't have been able to make it through alot of stuff without you.. yeah but it also shows how lacking my faith is. that i don't turn to God as my number one source of comfort hope and all that. yeahhh. so anyway. hope all of you will learn with me and go through all that God's planning for us together. i also hope that the sec 1 camp will go great. yupps. all the best for exams ppl! have a great week.