thoughts of 1st october

after talking to ben last week about some stuff it gave me alot to think about. it made me think about the controversy of my life. and how i was just like that song from planet shakers. where it talks about being all good and stuff on sundays etc and being a different person during the week. been really hoping that i'll bring my two "lives" together. where sunday will be like a "recharging base" or such. and school and the rest of the world is where we're supposed to minister to ppl and change lives and all that. but it seems so much like we die off on monday to friday.. it's really quite bad. breaking down the masks. breaking away from status quo. being labelled a Jesus freak. its something we all should be truly. martrys. we should be standing up for all we believe. like "the pledge of the unashamed" my pledge for life. something i'm hoping to eventually become. hopefully sooner. and i see my friends. fellow christians falling into temptation and being hurt so badly by things of this world. people of this world. because WE aren't people of this world! this world is and gone. ruled by satan. condemned to . but we've been saved. we're not of this world. this is merely but a part of our lives. that we must fulfill in order to achieve greater heights. anyywayy. this week taught me alot too. cos i've been like phoneless this whole week to concentrate on my studies.. usually i talk to my friends and share my thoughts and problems. but because i haven't been able to it kinda forced me to talk to God alot more. and it was good. although i didn't plan it that way. God turned something bad for me to something good. and it goes to show how much i've been depending on the comfort and help from my friends. you guys are really great. you know who you are.. i wouldn't have been able to make it through alot of stuff without you.. yeah but it also shows how lacking my faith is. that i don't turn to God as my number one source of comfort hope and all that. yeahhh. so anyway. hope all of you will learn with me and go through all that God's planning for us together. i also hope that the sec 1 camp will go great. yupps. all the best for exams ppl! have a great week.