rambles.

i dunno why in the world im doing this so you cant see it.
i guess it's a bit like how i feel right now.
like i want so badly to tell someone everything
but yet at the same time i dont.
it's seriously screwed up.

i've never felt so damn alone in my entire life.
i've sat on mountain tops by myself and watched sunsets
i've sat on beaches by myself watching sunrises
i've lied alone in the cold watching the most beautiful stars stare back at me.

but this loneliness that i feel now is.
way beyond all that.
and the saddest part is that i know i brought it upon myself.
that i was the only bugger who screwed the whole thing up.
everything.
sigh.. if you're actually reading this.
i hope you're doing a hell lot better than i am.